Oops! I feel like such a doofus! I forgot that I switched my comments to must be approved! So, I am soooooo sorry that I didn't respond to or approve your comments before now. I was actually getting kind of bummed that I didn't have any comments. Now I know that I did and it makes me feel oh so loved!
I have been having one of those weeks. You know the ones where everyone is out to piss you off and you are completely on edge and you feel like you want to scream!
Yeah thats me... this whole week. Today, after the last yelling match with my husband (this is rather unusual actually, we have an amazing relationship), we sat down on the deck and talked about how I am feeling like I am constantly working and getting nothing done. I haven't been alone since we moved to Santa Cruz and I just needed some alone time. He was feeling really under-appreciated. He moved here with me so I could go to UCSC and he left a great job, his ailing father, and everyone he knows and he felt like I didn't appreciate his sacrifice. Well, he was right. I was being selfish and I didn't realize how much this was also affecting him and Brae. I dont miss Palmdale one bit, I do miss my family and friends there but that place was holding us back. After hours of working out our difficulties I decided that the rest of the day was for relaxing.
I went to Bookshop Santa Cruz for a few hours by myself, walked around downtown a bit and then went to Safeway at 9pm when the store was empty and I was alone to shop in peace. While I was at Bookshop I found this book called I Was A Good Mom Until I Had Kids by Trisha Ashworth and Amy Nobile. Its got a bright pink cupcake on the front so you cant miss it.
This book is great! Recently I introduced myself as, "Hi I am Melissa, Tom's wife and Brae's mom" and it hit me... I feel like I lost my identity. The person who makes me, well me. I love being a mother and wife, but I am also Melissa, student at UCSC or Melissa, avid sewer with her own online store, or Melissa, Professional Photographer and I want to be seen as those parts of me too. This book is all about it! It felt so good to read every page because every sentence helped take off so much pressure! I am not the only one who feels overburdened with others expectations!
Sorry for the funky Amazon.com arrow, but thats where I ordered them. I cannot wait to get these! I have seen so many creative things on the Bend the Rules Flickr site I cant wait to add my own. The others are books I have picked up and put down so many times I cant count (if they keep talking to me I should just take them home so we can fully understand each other, right?). I also came across this book which isn't out yet but looks super promising...
This woman really knows her way around an embroidery hoop! I have never embroidered in my life and I am itching to learn. I hope to learn from Sublime Stitching and from Crafty Daisies who is offering free embroidery lessons on her blog starting Tuesday!
Well its late and I am off to bed. I did want to add one side note though. I am cleaning out my fabric supply. Yes, really! So look for it up on my store's etsy site as well as a bunch of kitting books that I haven't used in a while. I don't think I can sell those on etsy so they will probably go up on Amazon.com. If anyone is interested please email me and I will work out a deal. I will definitely be open to trading them for sewing books or supplies.